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Tokiko Kurosu ([personal profile] walktodeath) wrote 2022-08-25 10:17 pm (UTC)

cw suicidal ideation

Hm... I might be more selfish than that.

[ Which is an odd thing to say given how much, just how much of her life has been dedicated to nothing but pleasing her father - and how much she would have liked to keep going like that, forever a being of gratitude. If only he hadn't asked something else of her. ]

I wanted to live with Natsuki for the rest of my days - but Natsuki is dead. And if I am truly cursed, then there is a high likelihood that my curse killed her.

I don't want to replace her. She's given me everything I could possibly want. She made me happy. But even if I were to go on and make connections of different kinds, find different people... I would be dooming them over and over.

So honestly, I'd rather vanish from this world by my own choice and for my own happiness than try to be a boon to a reality in which I cannot have anybody to myself.

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